Wow. Just finished reading/taking in/replying to people, thankyou everyone for support/advice etc!
I'm bloody disappointed i'm not losing weight fast enough. Its been two weeks and i think i've gone down a kilo and a half or so. Only thing is, 'Aunt Flo/the painters' was due a week ago and i'm definitely not thin enough to lose my period, not pregnant or stressed so slightly worrying...
Also went to the doctor about the whole purging blood thing and i managed to get out of a colonoscopy but she totally scared the crap out of me, saying how vomiting is really high pressure on the gut, if it tears you can bleed out yada yada. If it happens again i'll have to go two hours away to a children's hospital (how condescending) to have it.
Completely irrational, but now i know that i'm back to the psychologist I feel like i need to lose weight so much quicker!! I think its because i want to feel proud, but also a tiny bit justify me being there, because honestly i don't think i even 'qualify' (if its something to aim for) an ED...
Deep and meaningful shit out of the way, i've kept my intake fairly consistent at 600 ish calories for the past few days. Also made really delicious bran muffins. But the title does no justice to this concoction. I printed off practically a BOOK of low calorie muffins to examine at school (yes i dedicate my time to learning!) and created a mutt of muffins. Its apples folded through an oat/flour/bran base with mostly splenda, egg white, vanilla essence, cinnamon, ginger, maple syrup (diet), no fat ricotta (spoonful), apple puree, soy milk etc and then you make the top crunchy by putting oats/cinnamon on. Sounds complicated ish but you kinda chuck whatever you want in a bowl and the apples come out all soft etc. 90 calories or so per muffin. Woot :)
Now i've bored everyone to tears i should start on the pile of homework i meant to start two hours ago.
Also going formal dress shopping tomorrow! I hate shopping for dresses because they never look good on me, but at the same time i'm not working and it might be fun now i weigh five kilos less...
"People tend to make rules for themselves and exceptions for others"
xx Claude
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wait u threw up blood too.
ReplyDeletei threwup blood last friday and it was jsut blood no food or water just a shit load of blood lovely did the doc tell u nething?
sometimes stress and just poor nutrition makesu loss ur period
stay strong hun
mm it was totally scary! Maybe you should consider seeing the doctor just so they can check? She said that it was probly a tear in the throat but alot can be something in the gut (ew).
ReplyDeleteAnyway i am working all day so a nice distraction :)
xx Claude
Puking blood is bad. However, amazing bran muffins that are only 90 calories, is amazing!
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