I'm forever the one who blogs about the usual, how much i've binged and how disgusting i am, how full and bloated i feel and how i will never be thin because god help me i just binged on an entire pizza and five chocolate brownies. But since school's gone back i've been so damned stressed that eating hasn't been on my list of priorities. I know that sounds like a recipe for disaster, like as soon as i start to deal with the stress i'll be uber hungry but i'm hoping not. For one thing i've got a manageable and sustainable routine. For breakfast which i never used to have i pack a shitload (like two and a half cups) of fruit salad which equals about 250 calories. This's mainly because i have all period zero which means starting at 8 instead of nine and getting up at 6. I'm up for longer and i get way more binge-ish. anyway i digress. So then i either have a skim caramel latte or another fruit salad before dinner and a hell of alot of diet coke and pepsi max. Basically every afternoon i have something on. (Monday - flute, tuesday - tennis, wednesday - gym, thursday - tennis) and i work one day a weekend so there's only one school arvo and a w/e day where i have a chance to binge.
So i've been averaging 1200.1300 calories a day. Not really low calorie but i've maintained it for a solid week or two and i'm feeling sick from anxiety, so i can't imagine eating that much or more.
On the upside i've lost FIVE POUNDS! woot. might not be much but it's big for me, especially since i've been at 120 or more for a good...many months lol. Anyway so now about 115 although thats a non digital scale and i have to sneak to my parents to be totally accurate.
anyway i have to go watch the biggest loser which i am completely addicted to even though it's total trash.
Oh another thing.. i watched Black swan. I pretty much loved the whole psychotic break down/bulimic/self harming thing and the dancing was beautiful but i hate scary movies even though it was just some tacky gore. So overall i liked it but i should've watched it with friends instead of alone on a stormy night at midnight :P
stay strong everyone
xx Claude
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wow, you seriously are one busy person!! it's great that it doesn't give you time to binge though.
ReplyDeleteYour plan sounds like it's working really well so good on you and keep it up :) congrats on the weight loss as well! very impressive.
I've wanted to see black swan for aaaaaaages and everyone on blogger who've seen it have been saying how good it is. I should try and see it soon.
Love Anafly
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Loving reading your posts, it's good to have you back! :)
ReplyDeleteBlack Swan is phenomenal. Crazy, but amazing. Natalie Portman is so good in it!
Congrats on the loss- any loss is still loss :)
Keep at it darling, you're doing lovely!
x
congrats on the weight loss hun
ReplyDeletewow ur so busy damn i would b so tired